Seven of Disks: Unfulfilled
      Postmarked May 17, 2008     Design by Julia C. Tenney

Tarot Cards
Three of Swords
0: The Fool
6: XOR: The Lovers
Two of Cups
Nine of Swords
Three of Cups
Five of Cups
Four of Swords
Two of Wands
Ace of Cups
Ten of Swords
Seven of Cups
Five of Disks
Six of Disks
Eight of Wands
Three of Disks
Two of Disks
3: The Empress
Seven of Disks

Trent Reznor Birthday cards
NIN is da...
9" Manicure
Perfect drug?
the phantom postcard for 1999
Nine Nails
Funny Pages
Nine of Swords
Five of Cups
Two of Wands
Ten of Swords
Five of Disks
Eight of Wands
Seven of Disks

Other NIN themed cards
Suck Suck Suck
I am so dirty
Mardi Gras
Leap Day
Sweet nothing
Ramen Coke

seven of disks - unfulfilled

Saturn in Taurus. Success Unfulfilled or Unfulfilling Success. Failure. Material Risk. Investment still in progress. Unvested stock options. Chickens before they've hatched. Ghosts of chances. Be careful what you wish for.

I had hoped to churn out my version of The Hermit, or Death, both sufficiently "goth" or "emo" cards for NIN and current events in my life. But I have such mentally well-formed visions for both cards that I couldn't bring myself to make a placeholder when I was unable to figure out Mac-friendly 3D Modeling freeware. A single card reading at gave a result that seemed snarkily topical. When trying to envision a different/placeholder Hermit, I kept seeing Athena in Mourning, which felt even more appropriate to this card. My choice was made!

Saturn is the planet of inevitable melancholy. There's no avoiding Saturn. It just is. The Thoth Tarot renamed this card "Failure". However, various interpretations suggest something more along of the waiting period between investment and results... or... and here's the "fail" part, achieving one's declared goals only to realize they weren't what one truly wanted, or being near to completion, but already having that sinking feeling, i.e.: every other PhD/JD I know.

Sunset and flower images from my personal photo library. Athena and planet image from public domain. Disk design is my own, from memory of a Japanese Mirror.

Updated: May 2008